I am planning to do another 8-10 weeks.
I hear you in the mental genetics as well .
We seem very similar in several ways in this sport.
My real plan is to have one more good run, then trt for a long while or forever.
I am finding as I go along I am doing the same as you mention.
Race for nothing, pushing and pushing in all aspects of my life, not just gym.
I stayed off the boards except several times a week lately, opposed to several times per day as per my normal when I have a few down minutes.
Overall I am seeking peace and longevity and as happy as I am fit doing it so long, I know one day it will catch up to me in some fashion.
I don’t like that feeling anymore.
Takes guts to be honest with yourself brother.
Much respect and whatever lines up in the future, you have a good head on your shoulders to do what’s needed.
If that makes sense.
It does feel good leveling off but the thought process for several weeks is exhausting. I agree