I know I shouldn’t post this but after another failed relationship, I started to write and this is it. I needed to post it somewhere and sorry guys but it’s the only place I found. Already posted it on Instagram but I feel like a ducking loser so I’ll probably delete it in max 15min. Here it is and thanks to the guys that will read it through. It’s just so hard to speak about it so here it is.
: A tale about anxiety
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The way it is we are on the way to score 200K on our first year. I used to dream about this but the thing is, The more I get, the more I feel like sh*t.
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You don’t deserve all of this. You don’t want it
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The voices keep teeling me.
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And I believe them even if there was about 10% of chances that our company would survive a year
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You’re just lucky, it’s because of your brother, you don’t deserve it. Why don’t you kill yourself to be done with it once and for all ?
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They keep telling me
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I was once told by the doctor that I had about 4% chance of living a stable life and then after achieving it against all odds, the voice told me
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Your family helped you, you piece of sh*t, it’s not 4% for you it’s 100% because of them, now shut up and listen to me. Put that gun on your head and pull the trigger. The world will be better without you in it.
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I’ve built an exceptional physique over the course of 2 years yet not enough.
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HAHAHA make me laugh you piece of sh*t, oh you worked 7 days a week for 730 days following a diet and working so hard that you were puking 2-3 times a week in the gym without cheating one time ?? Shut the f*ck up because you and me know that you were taking gear. Now all of this is nullified you piece of sh*t. Do better even if you’re still gonna hate yourself after that HAHAHA
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This is the kind of battle That I’ve been having in my head for the last decade yet I’m still aiming for the top, hoping that it will get me the peace that I’m craving so bad…
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Oh peace ? You will never have it as long as I’m with you. Remember when I came into your life in 2009 and told you I would never leave, until you change ? I lied HAHA, I’m here to stay, and even with god you won’t get rid of me and I’ll be there with a grin everytime you self sabotage your relationships because of me. Remember, every time that someone will tell you they love you ,you will doubt them and self sabotage because of me. I love you and YOU ARE mine, you better love me. We have met a long time ago, I guess it’s time for you to know my real name..
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My name is ‘The future’ but some people call me : Anxiety
: A tale about anxiety
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The way it is we are on the way to score 200K on our first year. I used to dream about this but the thing is, The more I get, the more I feel like sh*t.
-
You don’t deserve all of this. You don’t want it
-
The voices keep teeling me.
-
And I believe them even if there was about 10% of chances that our company would survive a year
-
You’re just lucky, it’s because of your brother, you don’t deserve it. Why don’t you kill yourself to be done with it once and for all ?
-
They keep telling me
-
I was once told by the doctor that I had about 4% chance of living a stable life and then after achieving it against all odds, the voice told me
-
Your family helped you, you piece of sh*t, it’s not 4% for you it’s 100% because of them, now shut up and listen to me. Put that gun on your head and pull the trigger. The world will be better without you in it.
-
I’ve built an exceptional physique over the course of 2 years yet not enough.
-
HAHAHA make me laugh you piece of sh*t, oh you worked 7 days a week for 730 days following a diet and working so hard that you were puking 2-3 times a week in the gym without cheating one time ?? Shut the f*ck up because you and me know that you were taking gear. Now all of this is nullified you piece of sh*t. Do better even if you’re still gonna hate yourself after that HAHAHA
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This is the kind of battle That I’ve been having in my head for the last decade yet I’m still aiming for the top, hoping that it will get me the peace that I’m craving so bad…
-
Oh peace ? You will never have it as long as I’m with you. Remember when I came into your life in 2009 and told you I would never leave, until you change ? I lied HAHA, I’m here to stay, and even with god you won’t get rid of me and I’ll be there with a grin everytime you self sabotage your relationships because of me. Remember, every time that someone will tell you they love you ,you will doubt them and self sabotage because of me. I love you and YOU ARE mine, you better love me. We have met a long time ago, I guess it’s time for you to know my real name..
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My name is ‘The future’ but some people call me : Anxiety